BORED.

Thursday, December 31, 2009

hullo blog.

kamusta? naku im bored to death. 4days na lang at pasukan nanaman hay.. nkakatakot pagpasok ko midterm na tapos mei report pa ako sa research design wah! huhu hay.. God bless na lang skin ehe :) ay tapos magpapasa pa pla ako ng draft ko sa online research waw! kamusta?!! hay hay.. hmm.. kya nga di ko feel 'tong christmas vacation ko eh ahe hay hay :l hmmmm.. anyway, dpat magayos na ako dahil bagong taon na haha bka isang buong taon akong lazy nito, aba di pde un haha! :)) mag aapply pa nman ako ng dean's list for next sem hayzzzz... ehe.

im with manz last night ehe, we watched fireworks display sa riverbanks and its his birthday today yii! we've spent together the first 4hrs of his 21st year hehe :) i hope i made me feel good somehow khit na pinaglakad ko sya at pinahirapan sa pagabang ng masasakyan pauwi haha binigyan pa nya kami ng 100bux haha ok lang nman un sknya mei work n din nman na xa haha :D pansin ko lang, parang yearly iba iba nakakasama ko pag nanunuod ako ng fireworks display ah? haha funny. hay, pero sna nman mei tumagal na tlga hay ung tipong sa susunod kong panunuod nun the same person parin ung ksma ko ehe hay.. hmm.. hay.. :(

kchat ko sa facebook si koy, churchmate nmin. nakakatuwa xa ehe but weird lang pag nagkikita na kmi sa church di nya ako kinakausap nonetheless kausapin ko sya aun.. weird ehe.. pero cguro mei mga taong talagang chatmate mo lang or textmate mo lang talaga ehe db? hay oh well.

hmm.. cge, gagawa na ako ng draft ko ahe mejo nakakatamad na din kasing mag facebook ahe :) okidoki! 'til next online hehe. muah! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! :) new year means new life for me.


xoxo,
fam :)

Afternoon delight :)

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

its a gloomy afternoon..

anyways, haha :) i missed blogging hayy.. been infront of the computer for several hours now haha :) turned on the comp ng 9am and til now its 4pm na hahaha :) adikkkk!! hehe wla nman akong msyadong gingawa hehe.. a daily routine haha hay.. napaka boring ng bakasyon ko, napakalungkot na ewan hay basta di masaya.. hayy.. hmmm.. mag babagong taon na lungkot lungkot parin. u know, no matter how hard i try to think positive and be happy the pain and the melancholy is still there, still here its just around the corner and how i so damnly wish na it would just go away. but sad to say, andito lang talaga sya unless i totally forget about it and let it go. i believe nman, na i let this thing go na eh like i dont care na nga about them but it just sucks!! i wish it just never knew it, never knew that it would come. i was happy na eh not until i learned about the news. i dont wanna say it dito kasi baka pag nabasa ko ulit ito after a year siguro maalala ko nanaman so i think it's pretty safe not to tell it na lang dito. hayyy.. hmm.. i miss being alive like a butterfly flying around haha hay.. hmm.. im so stuck with this four corners of the house, stuck in front of the computer, stuck in the sofa! STUCK IN THIS FULL OF SHIT PAST!! damn. i so hate recalling those days that we're still together. he was an asshole for crying out loud! asshole for leaving me and making palit of me with someone whom i think never even reached the level i am now. god, i just hate it! hay.. okay, enough. i dont want to ruin my entire day and my entire life just thinking how stupid that girl was and syempre mas stupid c chyr!! hayy.. i know im too smart to let him go. i dont have future with him. what will he feed me and my children?? none! breakdance? duh! breakdance his face! i dont care! all i know is that i'll be successful without him. he can never fulfill anyone's dreams, not tomorrow, not ever! hay.

im so done with him. i dont wanna think about him anymore okay? im happy for what is in store for me now. i know it will be the best. God removed chyr from my life 'cause He know na walang mngyayari sa buhay ko pag sknya ako napunta. all my efforts and all the sacrifices my parents gave me para maging successful will all be put to waste kapag si ralph ang nakatuluyan ko. so now, i am very much relieved and soon magiging masaya din ako sa lalaking deserve ko. GOODBYE CHYR. its just so sad that it ended up like this but what can i do? ikaw ang naglagay skin sa lugar na ito. i know, marerealize mo din someday ung mga sinabi ko sayo. bahala na si God sayo, vengeance is not mine its His. u made me cry, and every tear i have shed because of you is equivalent to your sacrifices. bahala na si God gumanti para skin.

Make Me Realize...

Monday, December 28, 2009

I am saddened about what's happening in the Philippines for the last 3mos and up to today and what i am going through as of the past few weeks is nothing compare to the feelings of those individuals, children and families who are suffering from the fire and from the awaited volcanic eruption of Bulkan Mayon.

I must be thankful though my heart is bleeding i still have plenty of reasons to be happy about because i have a home, i am alive, and i have my family and friends here. I guess, i was too vulnerable not to realize this right away, but you know God has plans for everything, if u have to lose one, you will surely gain a better one. If He took something away from you, it only means to say He has something better in store to give you something that you'll surely be glad of because He's the one who gave it to you and through Him and with Him you will never go wrong.

I may not realize what He's trying to do and what He really wants me to do, yet i know it will be for my good and for my growth as an individual and as His child as well (John 13:7).

I shouldn't fear tomorrow for the Lord my God is here with me who will help me in every step of the way (Isaiah 41:13). He will never leave me nor forsake me.

Ngayon lang to and tomorrow will be another day for me to be thankful of and continue being grateful about. God has been my strength in times i feel so down and weak. His the comfort i can never find in my friends 'cause the comfort I've been looking for is the comfort in the heart and soul where only God my Father, the Omnipotent One can give.

I wrote this 'cause i think it's the only way i can get out of this thing i feel inside. And i believe writing will somehow ease the pain that i am going through right now. Letting go and letting God is quite scary for me but you know giving your hand to God and letting Him hold you could be the best resource one could ever have in his entire life and in every heart break and rejection a person feels.

I hope someday i will finally find him, the one i have been waiting for. I know he will hurt me but not as much as my past, immature and irresponsible relationship would have brought me. I will now patiently wait for that special moment God will lead me to the way where this lovable, Christ-like and worthy man is. My turn for true love is yet to come and I am so excited of meeting him someday in God's perfect time. :)



love love love,
fam

haviing good vibes :)

Sunday, November 15, 2009

I LOVE ROCK RIOT!!

good day blog,

haha i got this new game in facebook, its name is rock riot and its super cool and addicting! yeah, a lot of my classmates are really into it. it's really fun haha although it might damage the keyboard but you just can't get away with it haha! actually, i asked my sister na to buy me a usb keyboard haha so that my mom wouldn't freak out whenever i play rock riot haha! and yah know what, though she warns me about playing and pressing the keyboard too much haha my mom loves playing rock riot too! actually, she sometimes steals the laptop from me haha imagine that! haha and believe it or not, she plays a lot better than me haha! it's way too cool!! haha :) i just simply love it haha :D

i got my multiply account na din haha FINALLY!! haha :)
well, my real multiply account actually.. i had an account back then but i was so lazy to update it so i signed up for a new one and im pretty sure i'll be checking and updating that out also :) promise! haha :))

i'm so into retro today, i just keep thinking of it.. "retro retro retro and lots of retro.. everything's retro! :)" that'll be my debut theme :) oh yeah! in 10 days i'll finally turn 18 haha :) so now, im enjoying my pre-legal-slash-minor days haha 'cause when i turn 18 everything will now change, uhm yeah quite everything :) haha i'm sort of excited about it, still not pressured, it's just a simple party haha nothing special just the retro vibe! yeah-ha! :) RETRO FEVAH! LOVE IT! :) aun, that's why i signed up for a new multiply account so that i can upload photos of my birthday there for private viewing purposes haha 'cause i only invited my college friends.. and my highschool friends even my bestfriends doesn't know about it. but i have a plan of treating abby (yeah, only abby and probably louisse) on a separate date and place. i hope she understand but i dont have a plan of telling her that i have this party at home eheh.. hayy..




WOW. this is the first time i blogged with full english if i may say so haha :)
well, im on the mood eh haha! but there's still a bit of tagalog in between my sentences haha :) anyway, i loooooove it!! haha :))

okay, good day dear blog. i'll see u later. cuddles! ;)

feelin' so wasted.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

mag mmove on na talaga ako!!! grrrr!!! >(

yoko na, yako na talaga! sama nya talaga huhu :(

nakita ko syang online sa facebook edi syempre nag message ako sakanya kasi nagulat ako eh, di kasi sya nag ffacebook eh tapos aun.. una sabe ko, "ui" "musta na?" "nag facebook ka?" aun tapos ilang seconds biglang nakita kong...... nag GRAY!!!! ibig sabihin nun nag offline ung kausap ko! badtrip talaga! (i was talking about chyr) hayyy!! sabi ko pa naman kanina miss ko na sya tapos ganto lang pla gagawin nya sakin?! wah! ang sama talaga.. ginawa na nya toh sakin date eh.. hay hay.. ang sakit talaga.. hmmm.. sama nya.. ANG SAMA SAMA NYA! hmmmm.. :(

hayy.. sige, nasira mood ko.. :(

ugh??!

good day blog :)


im now enjoying cafe world in facebook haha! :) parang restaurant city hehe :) sana hindi ako mag ningas kugon dito hehe :)

i went to my bestfriend's house yesterday. i love her soooooo much! :) its been 9 months since we last saw each other.. grabe! super kwentuhan hehe nakakatawa nga eh kasi sobrang nagtatawanan kami tapos bilang magiging serious haha :) hay hay sobrang namiss ko sya! at mei braces na sya haha kawawang bata haha :)) hayy.. napansin ko din parehas sila ni mharjorie ng nail polish haha! ang galing talaga hehe :) si mharj na tinuturing ko ng bestfriend ko sa pup at itong college hehe :) galing galing.. super nakakatuwa! :))

hay hay.. i love them both! plus daisy :) and the other snoogums boogums (my dearest college barkada) ;)

it started raining again. Wah! kakapraning! ang dilim dilim dito hay hay! kakatakot, ako pa lang nman mag isa kakaasar! hay hay.. hmmm.. dinadaan ko na lang sa laro kesa mapraning ako diba? hay hay.. hmm. yoko na umulan! na realize ko, 6 na bagyo na pala ang pumasok sa Pilipinas within a month pa lang! grabe! ondoy,pepeng,quedan,ramil,santi at tino! (infairness, pinangalan pa sa bida ng May Bukas Pa haha siguro fan sila ni santino hahaha lols!) hay hay.. anu beh! mag ppasko pa ah?! pwede ba, sana wala nang bagyo pls lang! pleeeeeassss!! hay.. :(

hmm.. gulo ng utak ko! hay hay..
ocge na buh-bye. later na lang ulit or maybe tomorrow.. i dunno.. resume na classes! :)
sana maging mganda ulit results ng grades ko pag natapos na ang semester :) mukang mahirap mga pagaaralan nmin ngaun ahe! pero okay lang, kaya yan! hehe :) kgrupo ko nman si mharjorie hahaha :))

hmm.. PAALAM!
*i miss chyr super badly

Yey! enrolled na ako :)

Thursday, October 29, 2009

yey! nakapag enroll na din ako sa wakas hehe :)

magbabayad na lang ako bukas wiiii :)
hay hay.. sobrang kabado na talaga ako kanina eheh pati ung mga classmates ko yarrr! last day na kaya bukas ng enrollment kung tom pa ako makakapag register masasaraduhan na ako ng bank and banks are also closed pag weekends.

hay, mga adik kasi mga proffesor lalo na ung si malaya "the effing communication proffesor" antamad nya, ganun ba talaga pag preggy? awts kung ganun nakakaloka pala mabuntis haha! kaya pla nag sstop ung iba sa pagaaral pag nabbuntis kasi tinatamad silang kumilos, mag suot ng uniform, mag ayos ng bag and all haha! weiiirrrdd.. hihi :) tapos, si sir aranas "the proud-kwento-ng-kwento-of-his-life-lolo of statistics" haha! sya ung unang natapos na subject, unang nag pa-final exam tapos ngaun lang nya natapos i-encode ung grades nmin to think na master na nya pag ccompute ng grades db? hay hay.. napaka irresponsable, ngaun ko lang toh naexperience hay! nakakaloka talaga aheh!

pero kahit na enrolled na ako, mei prob parin dahil di pa ayos ung p.e namin! amp! napilitan na lang kaming i-enrol ung 24units namin na dapat 26units kundi lang dahil dyan sa pesteng p.e na yan na volleyball parin!!! hate volleyball! i hate any sports that includes big circular balls!! grrr!! i remember my stupid experience when i was a kid hay hay.. but i don't wanna talk about it anymore haha! lols! :))

anyway, im soo happy again to tell you that my problem about my studies ay na solve na hehe :) thanks sa internet 'cause i dont have to suffer the long pila sa pag eenrol haha! :) may dahilan na ako para maligo bukas wahahahahaha!!! pupunta akong bank to pay my tuition and alas! im finally registered student for this coming semester oh yeah! haha :) THANK YOU LORD :)


hehe.
maraming dahilan para maging masaya. kaya tawa lang, KAMPAI!

IM OH-SO BACK!

YES! narevive ko na sa wakas ung blog ko wuhooo!! :))
i'm soooo happy :)

sorry, tagal kong di na bisita toh mharj hehe :) lam mo naman na nakalimutan ko ung username at password ko haha! ambubu hehe mei alzheimer's disease ata ako haha joke! :) but anyway, im super happy kasi im back.. i'm on again! yey haha :)

namiss ko toh super kahit baguhan pa lang ako dito hehe..
aun, happy happy.. wala na akong masabe kundi masaya ako hehe! halos sumabog utak ko nung nakalimutan ko un password ko at akala ko ung password lang ung nakalimutan ko amp! the worst thing pa! ung username ko ung nakalimutan ko!! hay, di ko nga maintindihan ko bakit ko nakalimutan un grabe! hay hay.. sa diname dame ng dapat makalimutan un pa haha! :))

anyway, dame ko pa naman sanang ikkwento nun.. from my experience with the typhoon ondoy and all the other calamaties, my on-and-off relationship with chyr, my dear mharjorie's birthday and many more aheh.. kaso aun, nakakatamad ng ikwento dahil sa dame nun nagpatung-patong na haha! andame kya nun?! hehe :)

it's nice to be back.
miss the online evironment here in blogger kesa puro facebook at friendster at twitter lang pinupuntahan ko diba? hehe :)

weeeeee... HAPPINESS! :))


a lot of love,
famii :)

a huge *sigh :/

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

good evening blog & mharj,

hayy.. namiss ko talaga si mharj ngaun araw na toh ah? haha obvious naman eh db? haha sabik na sabik ako sau haha :) grabe, di parin ata ikaw nakakauwi hehe awawa ka nman hehe.. kami kc lam mo na, haha msyado kami masaya sa grupo kya eto hahaha :) galing mo pla umarte mharj, hehe mharjorie-tong hahaha :)) lam mo ba, i called doreen knna na mharjorie haha! sa sobrang labo ng mata akala ko talaga ikaw un?! hahahaha waw astiigen sa malayo ala doreen ka pla sa paningin ko hehe :)

dame k pla kwento sayo bout my date with ralph yesterday hihi :) pero ewan ko kung okay na ko sa napagusapan nmin aun.. know what he told me? sbe nya, he really cant keep a commitment kya aun sbe nya bahala na daw si God smen aun, i-put na lang daw nmin ung trust nmin kay God aun.. what do you think? hay hay.. i really miss him, like crazy talaga! hay hay.. he told me, he still loves me, he really do sbe ko din gnun aun, and i also told him that i'll wait aun hay hay.. pero sbe lang nya talaga, bahala na si God smen aun.. cguro natatakot sya na baka lam mo na, hindi nya talaga mgampanan un mga responsibilities bilang bf aun.. u know, we're not getting any younger.. we'll be graduating in the next 2yrs db? tas sya matagal pa aun.. lam mo un? naiisip nya ung mgging future ko with him kaya siguro nagaaus muna sya and i guess i'm okay nman with that pero kc lam mo un, gusto ko prin ung mssabe kong sakin sya pra wala na talagang eepal haha aun hay hay.. pero cge, i trust God and i trust him :) sana, maging okay kami kung di nga kami sa future.. sana matanggap ko aheh hay hay.. i love him mharj, as in! i have never loved anyone like i did sakanya, aun.. hay hay.. well, dapat talaga mag pray ako real hard pra ireserve sya ni God para sakin hehe :) i pray yours too hihi :) that you'll find the right guy at the right time na ibbigay ni God sayo, :) and if that happens, i'll be your happiest friend in the whole wide world ayt! :)

kwento pa pla nya, niloko daw nya tita nya n mei papakilala syang ibang gurl.. haha ngalit daw tita nya, gusto daw ako haha! oha oha? ehehe, iba toh dude hahaha! :)) hayy.. kelan kya kami ulit magkikita?? hay.. kung sa birthday ko pa, antagal naman! hay hay.. hmm.. i can wait :) patience is a virtue haha.. :)

okay mharj, ill see you tomorrow :)
God bless sa exam sa intra inter hihi :)
thanks for reading my dearest blog, hope you'll continue reading my future blogs ;)
muah muah..

love, love, love,
-phamiestar ;)

duh?!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

i dont feel blogging today but i'll blog anyway..

hay hay.. he's still not texting me hay! pambihira, magkikita ba talaga kami o baka drawing lang? hay hay.. pinapaasa lang nya talaga ako.. dame nya pa arte! ansama nya :(

hay, hmm.. i really dont feel okay at the moment.. okay i'll wait til midnyt today, pag wala parin text from him.. bahala na!! hayy.. i hate the feeling.. hay.. super sigh..

i guess, demi lovato's here we go again will be my anthemn for the night aheh..

good night, if it's really a good night?? :/

where are you mharjorie??!!

wihee-wap!

Friday, September 18, 2009

hi blog & mharj,

ansaya ko ngaun haha! grbe! i just saw afroman!! wuhooo!! ang galing talaga haha di ko akalain un hehe ;) wiiii.. at naka backpack na sya, last tym na nakita ko sya prang wala pa syang bag na dala hehe.. pero grbe ang cool nya talaga wit his afro hair hehe :) aun, parang all the stress sa jeep at tricycle paid off dahil nakita ko sya hehe, pero sna di nya ako nakita kc ung tricycle na sinasakyan ko ay sobrang lakas ng audio nakakahiya aheh hay hay..

anyway, mharj di kita nakausap ngaun ah? ur busy and so do i hehe.. i really miss you.. sna mkasabay ka ulit nmin sa lrt.. we really miss you :( after talaga nitong play and all the other stuffs we do ngaun in school, mag bbonding tayo ah? ah? hehe.. lage na lang xe si maricar ksma mu huhu, hehe andrama? nag selos ang lola mo? hahaha :D di, joke lang un ah? bka mgalit skin si maricar haha :)

grbe! super gm mga clasmates natin! kairita!! sabog na sabog na inbox ko grrr... hay hay! hmf.. nkakatanggap ka rin ba? drop by some comments naman oh wag na sa facebook hehe pwede nman mag comment dito kahit di ka naka register eh, inaus ko nman settings nito eh hehe :) aun, naisip ko lang na kahit di tayo nagkakausap na ngaun atleast through my blog we can still talk or i can still share my thoughts to you di ba? di ba? coooooool huh? hehe :) love you mharj, ilang days na lang anniversary na ng snoogums boogums at debut mo na hehe wii.. anu ba gusto mung gift ko sayo? hehe ;) momoaah! :x (tae talaga! yamot na ako sa gm!! GRRRRR!!)

cge mharj, here's to a long weekend yay! :)
il see you on tuesday, GO FIGHT CHEER WIN! C.O.C!! :)

haha nytish! :)
im starting love blogging now especially when i dont i get the chance to talk to my dear mharjorie for the whole day long.. kampai! :)

HULLO !

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

good evening blog & mharj,

hihi im back haha! :D

mharj, gumawa ka na ng blog mo dito hehe.. maupdate mo nman through your celphone eh hehe buti ka pa hay hay.. know what? lahat na ginawa ko para magkaron ng opera mini huhu but sad to say, ayaw nya talaga.. grbe ang arte talga ng samsung super! hay hay, gusto ko na mag palit ng unit pero hehe samsung parin trip ko haha ;) wuuu.. i really want to have my own opera mini so i can update my blog anytime and anywhere huhu! i wish makahanap na ng compatible sa celphone ko huhu..

namiss ko si mharj today, di kami nagusap ng mahaba huhu hay.. tgal na namin di nkakapag bonding so busy.. hay hay, gusto ko sna sya itreat sa Pan de Amerikana kaso anlayo ng panggagalingan nya haha! :)

anyway, blogs are online diaries ryt? so ang purpose nito ay idiscuss ang ngyari skin ngaung arw na toh haha! my very own definition of blogging haha :)

lapit na sembreak! wii, dame nanaman mag ddebut next month at isa na dun si ang kaibigan kong si mharjorie haha :) lapit na din kami magkita ni chyr ko :) haha sna?? eheh, i really miss him, as in to death! how i wish he knew.. sobrang pigil ang feelings ng lola mo pag ktext sya haha :) hayy.. sna maging okay na kami, sna maging kami ulit haha! :) there's nothing wrong about it nman db? kya nga "wishlikephamiestar" eh haha :D

il post my wish list maybe nxt week our tomorrow or the next day, idraft ko muna bago ko ipost dito hehe lols :)

so aun,mharj lam ko mababasa mo toh hihi :) drop by some comments and make your own blog na para di ako mukang ewan dito okay? il see u in school.. i love you :)

good night blog, good night mharj,
*huggy :)

getting started.. :)

soo cool.. :) this will be my first blog post here in blogger haha! happy..
and this will be my real blog na, nauto ako ng mabait kong kaibigan na si mharjorie hehe :)

ako nga pla si fam ;) simpleng magaaral ng p.u.p hehe :)
sobrang natutuwa ako dahil nakagawa na din ako ng totoo kong blog haha!
sna mei bumisita nito hehe at maengganyo na gumawa din ng blog so we can connect and be friends haha ;) KAMPAI!

sa mkakabasa at bibisita sa blog kong ito, maraming salamat! mabuhay po kayo :)
haha! :)

okay, i'll visit you later my dear blog..
papasok na akong school..
masaya ako :)


weeeee ^^