hullo blog.
kamusta? naku im bored to death. 4days na lang at pasukan nanaman hay.. nkakatakot pagpasok ko midterm na tapos mei report pa ako sa research design wah! huhu hay.. God bless na lang skin ehe :) ay tapos magpapasa pa pla ako ng draft ko sa online research waw! kamusta?!! hay hay.. hmm.. kya nga di ko feel 'tong christmas vacation ko eh ahe hay hay :l hmmmm.. anyway, dpat magayos na ako dahil bagong taon na haha bka isang buong taon akong lazy nito, aba di pde un haha! :)) mag aapply pa nman ako ng dean's list for next sem hayzzzz... ehe.
im with manz last night ehe, we watched fireworks display sa riverbanks and its his birthday today yii! we've spent together the first 4hrs of his 21st year hehe :) i hope i made me feel good somehow khit na pinaglakad ko sya at pinahirapan sa pagabang ng masasakyan pauwi haha binigyan pa nya kami ng 100bux haha ok lang nman un sknya mei work n din nman na xa haha :D pansin ko lang, parang yearly iba iba nakakasama ko pag nanunuod ako ng fireworks display ah? haha funny. hay, pero sna nman mei tumagal na tlga hay ung tipong sa susunod kong panunuod nun the same person parin ung ksma ko ehe hay.. hmm.. hay.. :(
kchat ko sa facebook si koy, churchmate nmin. nakakatuwa xa ehe but weird lang pag nagkikita na kmi sa church di nya ako kinakausap nonetheless kausapin ko sya aun.. weird ehe.. pero cguro mei mga taong talagang chatmate mo lang or textmate mo lang talaga ehe db? hay oh well.
hmm.. cge, gagawa na ako ng draft ko ahe mejo nakakatamad na din kasing mag facebook ahe :) okidoki! 'til next online hehe. muah! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! :) new year means new life for me.
xoxo,
fam :)
Afternoon delight :)
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
its a gloomy afternoon..
anyways, haha :) i missed blogging hayy.. been infront of the computer for several hours now haha :) turned on the comp ng 9am and til now its 4pm na hahaha :) adikkkk!! hehe wla nman akong msyadong gingawa hehe.. a daily routine haha hay.. napaka boring ng bakasyon ko, napakalungkot na ewan hay basta di masaya.. hayy.. hmmm.. mag babagong taon na lungkot lungkot parin. u know, no matter how hard i try to think positive and be happy the pain and the melancholy is still there, still here its just around the corner and how i so damnly wish na it would just go away. but sad to say, andito lang talaga sya unless i totally forget about it and let it go. i believe nman, na i let this thing go na eh like i dont care na nga about them but it just sucks!! i wish it just never knew it, never knew that it would come. i was happy na eh not until i learned about the news. i dont wanna say it dito kasi baka pag nabasa ko ulit ito after a year siguro maalala ko nanaman so i think it's pretty safe not to tell it na lang dito. hayyy.. hmm.. i miss being alive like a butterfly flying around haha hay.. hmm.. im so stuck with this four corners of the house, stuck in front of the computer, stuck in the sofa! STUCK IN THIS FULL OF SHIT PAST!! damn. i so hate recalling those days that we're still together. he was an asshole for crying out loud! asshole for leaving me and making palit of me with someone whom i think never even reached the level i am now. god, i just hate it! hay.. okay, enough. i dont want to ruin my entire day and my entire life just thinking how stupid that girl was and syempre mas stupid c chyr!! hayy.. i know im too smart to let him go. i dont have future with him. what will he feed me and my children?? none! breakdance? duh! breakdance his face! i dont care! all i know is that i'll be successful without him. he can never fulfill anyone's dreams, not tomorrow, not ever! hay.
im so done with him. i dont wanna think about him anymore okay? im happy for what is in store for me now. i know it will be the best. God removed chyr from my life 'cause He know na walang mngyayari sa buhay ko pag sknya ako napunta. all my efforts and all the sacrifices my parents gave me para maging successful will all be put to waste kapag si ralph ang nakatuluyan ko. so now, i am very much relieved and soon magiging masaya din ako sa lalaking deserve ko. GOODBYE CHYR. its just so sad that it ended up like this but what can i do? ikaw ang naglagay skin sa lugar na ito. i know, marerealize mo din someday ung mga sinabi ko sayo. bahala na si God sayo, vengeance is not mine its His. u made me cry, and every tear i have shed because of you is equivalent to your sacrifices. bahala na si God gumanti para skin.
anyways, haha :) i missed blogging hayy.. been infront of the computer for several hours now haha :) turned on the comp ng 9am and til now its 4pm na hahaha :) adikkkk!! hehe wla nman akong msyadong gingawa hehe.. a daily routine haha hay.. napaka boring ng bakasyon ko, napakalungkot na ewan hay basta di masaya.. hayy.. hmmm.. mag babagong taon na lungkot lungkot parin. u know, no matter how hard i try to think positive and be happy the pain and the melancholy is still there, still here its just around the corner and how i so damnly wish na it would just go away. but sad to say, andito lang talaga sya unless i totally forget about it and let it go. i believe nman, na i let this thing go na eh like i dont care na nga about them but it just sucks!! i wish it just never knew it, never knew that it would come. i was happy na eh not until i learned about the news. i dont wanna say it dito kasi baka pag nabasa ko ulit ito after a year siguro maalala ko nanaman so i think it's pretty safe not to tell it na lang dito. hayyy.. hmm.. i miss being alive like a butterfly flying around haha hay.. hmm.. im so stuck with this four corners of the house, stuck in front of the computer, stuck in the sofa! STUCK IN THIS FULL OF SHIT PAST!! damn. i so hate recalling those days that we're still together. he was an asshole for crying out loud! asshole for leaving me and making palit of me with someone whom i think never even reached the level i am now. god, i just hate it! hay.. okay, enough. i dont want to ruin my entire day and my entire life just thinking how stupid that girl was and syempre mas stupid c chyr!! hayy.. i know im too smart to let him go. i dont have future with him. what will he feed me and my children?? none! breakdance? duh! breakdance his face! i dont care! all i know is that i'll be successful without him. he can never fulfill anyone's dreams, not tomorrow, not ever! hay.
im so done with him. i dont wanna think about him anymore okay? im happy for what is in store for me now. i know it will be the best. God removed chyr from my life 'cause He know na walang mngyayari sa buhay ko pag sknya ako napunta. all my efforts and all the sacrifices my parents gave me para maging successful will all be put to waste kapag si ralph ang nakatuluyan ko. so now, i am very much relieved and soon magiging masaya din ako sa lalaking deserve ko. GOODBYE CHYR. its just so sad that it ended up like this but what can i do? ikaw ang naglagay skin sa lugar na ito. i know, marerealize mo din someday ung mga sinabi ko sayo. bahala na si God sayo, vengeance is not mine its His. u made me cry, and every tear i have shed because of you is equivalent to your sacrifices. bahala na si God gumanti para skin.
Make Me Realize...
Monday, December 28, 2009
I am saddened about what's happening in the Philippines for the last 3mos and up to today and what i am going through as of the past few weeks is nothing compare to the feelings of those individuals, children and families who are suffering from the fire and from the awaited volcanic eruption of Bulkan Mayon.
I must be thankful though my heart is bleeding i still have plenty of reasons to be happy about because i have a home, i am alive, and i have my family and friends here. I guess, i was too vulnerable not to realize this right away, but you know God has plans for everything, if u have to lose one, you will surely gain a better one. If He took something away from you, it only means to say He has something better in store to give you something that you'll surely be glad of because He's the one who gave it to you and through Him and with Him you will never go wrong.
I may not realize what He's trying to do and what He really wants me to do, yet i know it will be for my good and for my growth as an individual and as His child as well (John 13:7).
I shouldn't fear tomorrow for the Lord my God is here with me who will help me in every step of the way (Isaiah 41:13). He will never leave me nor forsake me.
Ngayon lang to and tomorrow will be another day for me to be thankful of and continue being grateful about. God has been my strength in times i feel so down and weak. His the comfort i can never find in my friends 'cause the comfort I've been looking for is the comfort in the heart and soul where only God my Father, the Omnipotent One can give.
I wrote this 'cause i think it's the only way i can get out of this thing i feel inside. And i believe writing will somehow ease the pain that i am going through right now. Letting go and letting God is quite scary for me but you know giving your hand to God and letting Him hold you could be the best resource one could ever have in his entire life and in every heart break and rejection a person feels.
I hope someday i will finally find him, the one i have been waiting for. I know he will hurt me but not as much as my past, immature and irresponsible relationship would have brought me. I will now patiently wait for that special moment God will lead me to the way where this lovable, Christ-like and worthy man is. My turn for true love is yet to come and I am so excited of meeting him someday in God's perfect time. :)
love love love,
fam
I must be thankful though my heart is bleeding i still have plenty of reasons to be happy about because i have a home, i am alive, and i have my family and friends here. I guess, i was too vulnerable not to realize this right away, but you know God has plans for everything, if u have to lose one, you will surely gain a better one. If He took something away from you, it only means to say He has something better in store to give you something that you'll surely be glad of because He's the one who gave it to you and through Him and with Him you will never go wrong.
I may not realize what He's trying to do and what He really wants me to do, yet i know it will be for my good and for my growth as an individual and as His child as well (John 13:7).
I shouldn't fear tomorrow for the Lord my God is here with me who will help me in every step of the way (Isaiah 41:13). He will never leave me nor forsake me.
Ngayon lang to and tomorrow will be another day for me to be thankful of and continue being grateful about. God has been my strength in times i feel so down and weak. His the comfort i can never find in my friends 'cause the comfort I've been looking for is the comfort in the heart and soul where only God my Father, the Omnipotent One can give.
I wrote this 'cause i think it's the only way i can get out of this thing i feel inside. And i believe writing will somehow ease the pain that i am going through right now. Letting go and letting God is quite scary for me but you know giving your hand to God and letting Him hold you could be the best resource one could ever have in his entire life and in every heart break and rejection a person feels.
I hope someday i will finally find him, the one i have been waiting for. I know he will hurt me but not as much as my past, immature and irresponsible relationship would have brought me. I will now patiently wait for that special moment God will lead me to the way where this lovable, Christ-like and worthy man is. My turn for true love is yet to come and I am so excited of meeting him someday in God's perfect time. :)
love love love,
fam
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