its a gloomy afternoon..
anyways, haha :) i missed blogging hayy.. been infront of the computer for several hours now haha :) turned on the comp ng 9am and til now its 4pm na hahaha :) adikkkk!! hehe wla nman akong msyadong gingawa hehe.. a daily routine haha hay.. napaka boring ng bakasyon ko, napakalungkot na ewan hay basta di masaya.. hayy.. hmmm.. mag babagong taon na lungkot lungkot parin. u know, no matter how hard i try to think positive and be happy the pain and the melancholy is still there, still here its just around the corner and how i so damnly wish na it would just go away. but sad to say, andito lang talaga sya unless i totally forget about it and let it go. i believe nman, na i let this thing go na eh like i dont care na nga about them but it just sucks!! i wish it just never knew it, never knew that it would come. i was happy na eh not until i learned about the news. i dont wanna say it dito kasi baka pag nabasa ko ulit ito after a year siguro maalala ko nanaman so i think it's pretty safe not to tell it na lang dito. hayyy.. hmm.. i miss being alive like a butterfly flying around haha hay.. hmm.. im so stuck with this four corners of the house, stuck in front of the computer, stuck in the sofa! STUCK IN THIS FULL OF SHIT PAST!! damn. i so hate recalling those days that we're still together. he was an asshole for crying out loud! asshole for leaving me and making palit of me with someone whom i think never even reached the level i am now. god, i just hate it! hay.. okay, enough. i dont want to ruin my entire day and my entire life just thinking how stupid that girl was and syempre mas stupid c chyr!! hayy.. i know im too smart to let him go. i dont have future with him. what will he feed me and my children?? none! breakdance? duh! breakdance his face! i dont care! all i know is that i'll be successful without him. he can never fulfill anyone's dreams, not tomorrow, not ever! hay.
im so done with him. i dont wanna think about him anymore okay? im happy for what is in store for me now. i know it will be the best. God removed chyr from my life 'cause He know na walang mngyayari sa buhay ko pag sknya ako napunta. all my efforts and all the sacrifices my parents gave me para maging successful will all be put to waste kapag si ralph ang nakatuluyan ko. so now, i am very much relieved and soon magiging masaya din ako sa lalaking deserve ko. GOODBYE CHYR. its just so sad that it ended up like this but what can i do? ikaw ang naglagay skin sa lugar na ito. i know, marerealize mo din someday ung mga sinabi ko sayo. bahala na si God sayo, vengeance is not mine its His. u made me cry, and every tear i have shed because of you is equivalent to your sacrifices. bahala na si God gumanti para skin.
